25 Things You Probably Knew Already

So since everyone is doing this little servey thing I might as well try.
So here is 25 Random thing about my life that you may or may not
have known.

1. My best friend in the whole world is my sister! I am not just saying that
either cause i have too we seriously have so much fun together and we are
true best friends.

2. My Two biggest fears in the whole world is Deep open water and Lonliness.

3. I recently discovered my fear of being a lone after watching the movie
I Am Legend. That Movie was terrifying to me. I would literally go insane
if i was the last person on the Planet.

4. I feel like the only thing I am remotely talented at is theatre.

5. I am a sucker for sweet talk. I have been played a few times to many
somtimes it was by the same girl.

6. This year i have realized my love for Literature and History I have really
teachers in both subjects and they make me enjoy their very long classes.

7. I would like to think of myself as very level-headed.

8. I recently read the book Tuesdays With Morrie and it was probably THE
best book I have ever read. It was also the first book to make me
legitamently cry, INCLUDING HARRY POTTER!

9. While on the topic, I have never been more captivated my a series
than i have with Harry Potter. I can read those books over and over
agian and i wont get tired of them.

10. My 8th grade English teacher still remains my favorite teacher and most
inspirational person in my life.

11. I feel like the teachers in middle school cared so much more about me
compared to my teachers in high school. I wish it was reversed because
high school is what actually means more.

12. I found out that this blog is probably the best way i could possibly
relieve any anger or stress.

13. I am addicted to Burts Bees Wax and Coffee.

14. Chipotle is the best America-Mexican Food i have ever had.

15. I have traveled all over Europe and North America and I wish to visit
other countries.

16. I have the most impractical dream ever of becoming a professional actor
but i feel nothing else in the world would make me happier.

17. I seriously am clueless as to what I am going to do when the Seniors
graduate i know i will be heartbroken but I have no idea how i will be
able to manage without them always here.

18. Adventures make my life thrilling. They also make tons of adrenaline
rush through my veins. (ok britney spears).

19. I remember tubing at a lake last summer holding on to dear life because
i am that afraid of water.

20. My favorite memories ever come from Remsen, Iowa and Omaha,
Nebraska.

21. I think that foreign languages are soo cool but at the same time they
are a complete wast of my time.

22. I have no idea in the world where i would like to go to college.

23. I have a brother who died.

24. 8th grade was so far the best year of my life but I think that will
end soon.

25. My friends are what keep me going. I have slowly started to realize who
my true friends are and i am able to understand which friends i should
invest most of my time in.

14 days!

Ok so it is exactly 2 weeks from today that my life will be AMAZING.
1. I get to see my best friend ever in the whole world!! I miss you so
much i cannot wait till we get to have adventures in your homeland!!
2. I overall just love Harvard. This time I really feel like i can
accomplish my goals! so i am just soo amped up!! AHHH! i cannot
wait!!

I am already getting the vibe that this weekend is gonna be mellow.
that kinda sucks. We will see though i just want to have fun! Because
this is basically my last social weekend until the end of February so
I want to live it up!

Also if you are in the mood to watch something amazing click here http://vimeo.com/3009758
this is why I do speech. It is the most amazing duo I have ever seen!!

SICCKK LIFE:)

Also

Please ignore the drastic difference of emotions between the
last two posts. Yesterday was obviously awful and today
was the complete opposite. hhahah

On another note this blog has just gotten a little more
public. ruhh rohh. Lets see how this goes.:)
Yayyy weekend tomorrow!

P.S I LOVE YOU SAMMI SAUNDERS!
you are my best friends ever!

The Storm has Receded

So basically the drama is finally setteled.
I went to practice happy and not stressed for the first time in weeks.
I know i was originally not happy with the coaches desicion but
so far so good. Kati has been trying so hard and it really showed
today. We were both joking and laughing and having a lot of fun
while legitamentally getting some work done. It was really
refreshing. I still stand strong by what i originally said though,
but i dont think this will be bad at all. Also, I am her friend i am just
better friends with lauren and I dont know how to tell you to keep
me out of this but i really dont want any part of the fight between you
to so I am just ignoring anything you have to say about her! lets hope
it works! ahhhh overall just a really good speech day!

As for school, I got most of my teachers to sign my schedule.
I really hate French. I love the people, I love Mrs. Sanders
but it just is not for me at all. i had a C before I turned in my Euro.
Now I have a very low B. I do NOT want to get a C in this god forsaken
waste of my time class. There is just nothing to motivate me at all!
I think this week is just soo boring in every class. It is almost like
all the teachers got together and made their classes more boring
to piss everyone off! What ever, I am just stoked for the weeked!

Also i fell sorry for Sammi. There seems to be a little bit of a
controversy on her blog. People just dont understand what
we have to go through. She definitely has more on her plate
than I do but I can definitely relate most. People just need to
grow up!

Peace, I need a good night sleep
before this crazy weekend!
except this weekend is probs gonna be really boring... NIGHT!

You Know What!

I got fucked over hard core.
You are the most manipulative Bitch I have EVER met.
You just manipulate everyone so you can get what you want!
and I fell for it again for the LAST time ever. I promise.
You have ruined this semester for me in speech and now it is
time for me to get what i truly deserve. I dont want to be your
friend I am going to use you just like you used me. All I was last
semester was your tool, now you are nothing less that a broom
that I will be using to sweep up the bad talent at harvard. Mark
my words, I am not doing this in any way of a pity for you because
1. I hate you. 2. This is not my decision and it is completely forced
on me. 3. I will have succeeded with or with out you with this duo.
Yeah I am stuck with you so it is just gonna be harder but it will be
even better saying how much you fucked this up and how hard it was
for me to pull off.

If you are reading this, it is quite blunt who this is about.
Ignore my cocky attitude. But lets be real here,
I and a few other people dont deserve the position we were
put into. I'm gonna do this 10x better than you. I'll prove you.
Just watch.

Drama

Ok, so over the course of the past... 24 hours i have
been through sooo much!! First I dealt with the Drama
of Saturday night which still is A really great night to me.
Anyways, people are NOT happy about what went down...
Well that is obvious. After that I went to Native with Sammi
and I talked to probably the most indecisive person everr!
He would not give us any info on fundraising. Thanks Douche!
Next I went to speech where I got into an hour and a half long
fight! Soo dramatic! This bitch can seriously manipulate anyone!
This is what she is trying to do to get back in this duo and the
only person that her amazing skills did not work on is me!
It just pisses me off! Fuck take fucking hint! I dont like you!
If one of us doesnt like eachother than how can we succesfully
work together? The answer is, It's Impossible! It is not going to
work niether of us have the tenacity or talent to pretend we like
eachother and still produce a good duo. I dont understand how you
cant comprehend this? Haha? Well anyway I came home all riled up
and I wasn't capable to do my homework. I started it around 8 o'clock.

I have recently discovered that not only is 2nd semester the worst,
but it I am almost incapable when it comes to staying on task.
I am just so unmotivated. I think the teachers plan to make
everything so boring that no one wants to do anything, is it just me?
For instance i left like 4 or 5 problems blank on my math homework,
I didn't even pick up the make up work i was supposed to have done
for english, and when it came time to study for the Japan test in world
history i choose to steal a shopping cart with Lauren Miller and then
throw it in Sammi's yard, this was at 9:30 last night! What am I thinking?
Well I just need to start getting more on task. My slack is greatly showing.
I totally bombed the french test I took yesterday, I got a B on my notebook
check in Bio, my English teacher talked to my class about how all of our
grades are slipping. So, I have decided to make an oath. i will write
all of the shit I need to get done that night and i must complete all of it.
If i dont then I have to turn down a Starbucks run. Ok so this is the gayest
idea EVER. But I seriously need to get my shit done. PERIOD.

This Weekend!

Ok, so this weekend was the craziest weekend EVER.
Lets break this down day by day.

On Friday i went over to brandons and chilled.
We started off by lighting off fireworks!
I then decide to light one and as I'm
running away and i fall! I look back and see
a bushel that has caught fire! My friends run away,
and i am left to stomp the fire out! After this we witness
a robbery at safeway, then I see all these firetrucks
and I am sitting in my truck, zach is in the veto position
in the back panicking that we are gonna get pulled over for
having him there and then they pull up next to us..
and take a left to the foothills...
About a moment of relief until I realize that they are going to
Brandons neighborhood! I am stuck with fear realizing
I started the fire, turns out I didnt!:)
HA so I am not the felon you were hoping for.
We then went to the DV park and ice blocked down the hills.
This has to be the white trashiest thing ever.
I then ended the evening with deep discussions at DQ.

Saturday- I woke up and went to speech which was sooo
eventful!:) For starters I know I did something bad and
selfish so I could get ahead, but hey I believe it will
be worth it.:) I dont think it is bad its just that I needed
to do something for myself and I wasnt getting anything
done with the way things were going. I basically dropped Kati
as my duo partner, and I now have lauren!
This is really for the better, Kati wasnt commited.
It was simple as that!

As for the evening i started off at Courtney's Party.
She just turned 16 and it was so nice catching
up with old friends! About halfway through the party
Peter and I left to go to Erin Desoto's shindig.
which was OFF THE CHAIN! It was soo much fun!
I left at like 11 and at 11:17 the cops came! I have never
been so lucky to have an early curfew ever! I was completely
sober so it wouldnt have mattered if i got caught but all of
my friends got MIC's I felt sooo bad! I wish I could do something
for them! There was nothing much else to this eventful night!

Today is soo enjoyable! I woke up at around 9:30 and
had a nice talk with my parents! Then I was craving starbucks
So I called up Sammi and Lauren and we went there at 10:45.
Sammi left at like 11:15 and Lauren and I just talked about
life and relationship problems and hook ups! It was seriously
the most ideal sunday morning. AHH I love live!
This weekend was soo epic and im unbelievably thankful
for my parents and how i am safe!:)

Today.

Today, I experienced the most humiliating thing of my life!
I'm not exagerating either, it was the worst!
I dont really feel like going into it because i have
gone over that moment to many times today!

Today, I realized how great my friends are!
Paige Jenny and Mike made me feel
soo much better i would probably still be a wrek without them.
Also my parents have done the best jobs cheering me up
these past two days! I really appreciate everything they do for me!

Today, I experienced the 4th lunch for the first time ever!
I liked eating that early but at the same time I hated
how I had three classes after, it made the day so much longer!

Today, I have no idea what I'm doing! Hopefully something
adventurous! I am so in the mood for an amazing time!
Lets make this happen! :)

Peter Francis Olmanson

My brother was born on this glorious day!
I know what you're thinking,
and the answer is, Yes. I do have a brother.
He died a month after he was born.
I never tell anyone this because i dont
feel it is necessary. I mean i dont want
anyone feeling sorry for me because
it really isn't a big deal. I was the only one in
the family not to have known him which is
the only thing that truly bothers me.

It was so weird, this was the first time
i have ever forgotten his birthday.
When i got home my mom was talking to
my sister and they were talking about it.
I usually call my mom to cheer her up
because this is a really hard day for her.
So i felt so bad when i failed to remember
this morning.

But anyways, I wish you the best birthday bro!
i hope that heaven is treating you nicely:).

Summer Time!

Ok so i know it is the middle of January but it is like 80
Degrees and as the windows are down in my car i
Catch drafts of summer and it makes me so happy.
I want it to come so bad!
This summer is seriously gonna be so sick! Me
and all of my friends are gonna have our license
And it will make everything just so much more fun! I also
hate 2nd semester so much. I am soo unmotivated that its
unbelievable! It only gets worse as fourth quarter
approaches. Ahhh I cannot wait for summer!!:)

Lonely

Today i realized how lonely i am.
so i kinda like this one girl butttt there is no way in hell
that anything would happen because she is madly in love with her
boyfriend and i think i had a chance with her but i totally lost
it and i still feel like we have that chemistry and i think the word would
be passion between us but her friends have told me that i should just
forget about it. but is it so weird that i cant? i have never had feelings
like this for someone else so i mean i know what the right thing to do is.
which be to back off but there is something about her that keeps drawing me in.
and i mean if she was so in love with her boyfriend then she should be the one
to stop this nonsense. i feel like i am being played so hard yet i cant stop falling
for the same trick. i know this sounds like a stupid suggestion but i need some
sort of rebound from this to get my mind off of her because im not doing anything
good for my self by waiting for her.

So that is what has basically been going on through my mind for the past month!
this really needs to stop i just feel as if im being used as a boyfriend
figure and i dont get any of the perks. LAMEEEEEE! ahhh you have no
idea how infurriated i am about this topic. alsooo this is a very stickky situation.

On a lighter note i owned auditions today for night must fall.
and i am still stuck between wanting to do it and not.
and if i dont make it whatever, but i wont lie i will be a little
surprised. i feel like i deserved it today.
and im not trying to be an arrogant cocky dick.
i really owned ass.
but if i dont get picked it will most likely be because of seniority.

Procrastination

Ok so I know I am knew to this whole blogging thing,
but it is really addicting to the point of me not wanting to do my homework.
alright well im just using it as an excuse but i realized that 2nd semester
is the worst i procrastinate my ass off and expect the best.
i need to end this!! also i wonder how long it will take for someone to find
my blog. hah i will start counting. ok but seriously im done for today.

Night Must Fall

I am currently auditioning for the dramatic play Night Must Fall.
im kinda at a moo point looking into this production.
i would love to make it in, but at the same time i need to
get my priorities straight and if i am casted it most likely wont happen.
i also dont want to be a two liner in it becuase frankly that is a complete
waste of my time. so either put me in as a real character or
dont cast but i have a feeling as much as i dont want to be in the show,
i will be a little heart broken.
aldfhs'dfjhs
someone just take my mind off of this.

For Starters

I should probably give you a 3 month update in which direction my life has headed.
Ok so it basically starts in November when i went to glenbrooks
and i double broke! that was so much fun and
i have countless hilarious stories from that trip.
my sister came home for thanksgiving.
not gonna lie that was a really moderate thanksgiving.
it was at my house for a change and of course my irish uncle
was drunk as fuck, what new? and then we will move on a week later
and that will bring me to winter trophy. i took pfd for the
first time and i got third, who would of thought?
and me and my best friends sammi saunders whooped some
ass in our awesome duo! :) we both got fourth for the first times in our lives,
it was pretty epic. during this tournament week we
helped underprivilaged kids celebrate christmas but that
was kind of an epic fail since the theme was "Going Green."
lets be honest here, kids arent gonna have fun watching
you create a santa out of a toilet paper.
The next big event that occured was the Fullerton tournament.
alright this is was probably the best/worst thing ever.
i cant even describe it, i basically fell head over heals for someone
didnt do anything and lost my chance... thats all i will say on that note. (for now)
i also bombed at the tournament, i didnt break at all but the food made up for it.
on the last day of this trip we all went to disney land! SO MUCH FUN!!
i love disneyland! concluding my disney dream vacation was me getting sick.
It was the worst i have ever been, i got bronchitis, a sinus infection and a lung infection.
nott so fun! plus i had to get breathing treatments like every four hours.
Moving on to Christmas, well it was just christmas nothing to special.
EXCEPT my uncle got engaged which means there is a wedding in the near future!
new years this year was SO much fun!! i went to hannah sagers then to sammis! and i got
double teamed by the two lovely girls known as emily and lauren!
i said i dont agree with resolutions but secretly i have one, it is to be more forward and
aggressive with what i want, and that is yet to still be achieved.
also that night i called someone and said something completely stupid to someone
but to my amazement she was fine with it.
hey isnt it funny how you work hard on something and it doesnt pay off and then something you have totally neglected for a while succeeds, yeah well that happened to me.
ASU was one major stomach ache/blur. it was seriously so weird this year.
for starters it felt like i had fish hooks in my stomach the whole first day
and next i actually broke. and it wasnt even by accident. i was one point away
from being in the Duo Interp finals. and i spent kind of a lot of time on my humor and poetry.
kind of a bummer but im not complaining.
finally this last week a little weird for me. and i know what i am about to say is going
to sound pretty cocky but i went into the musical thinking i will have a part.
and i made call backs and was like DUH. i owned the first day
then i came home feeling stupid and thinking, "fuck, i will probably make onle ensemble."
and i was dissapointed but when i went to checked the postings of the cast list iwasnt on there at all. and i know i sounds soooo stupid but this was the first time i have ever not made a production. i guess it was good thing thought i needed a kick in the ass. it was really a humbling and new experience for me.

this past weeked was a three-day weekend and it was much needed.
i started the weekend off by going to native to watch the suns game. EPCI FAIL.
im soo dissapointed in the suns this season. i think the new coach should be fired.
then i hung out with the lovely kelsea on saturday and we hit up chipoot.
and i had an epic four square tournament!
and on saturday i played poker with the guys and ended the evening with some
funny moments with brandon. oh and GOOO CARDINALS!!
who would have thought that the cardinals would have made it to a superbowl?
haha and i got a new phone that was a pretty nice way to nd the weekend!

ok sorry for the longest post ever but it was necessary for you to keep track on where i stand right now!:)

So

I broke! and not the speech kind of break.
I mean i broke down from peer pressure into making a blog.
Everyone else was doing it so why not?
Let me just start off by saying i truly have the best friends ever.
Now being a Sophomore in high school i have come to realize who
the best people in my life are and who arent, and i have slowly drifted
from the people who arent important.
its kinda weird thinking of being an eighth grader again when i would not
event know half of who my closest friends "are going to be."
and the other half i was hardly on first name basis with.
so i guess this first post is just saying thank you for being one of those.
who have been willing to get closer or stickin with me through thick and thin
this past year. i very much appreciate it!